Thoughtful in Selah

Friday, April 25, 2008

My Life's About To Change

I'm really struggling to find a good title of this post.

I'm going to be covering a couple topics in this post. All of them are connected to one main theme which will appear somewhere near the middle or end of this post.

Last Sunday my pastor preached a message concerning baptisms of water and Spirit. He said that Christians should be baptized in water but only if we make that choice and are old enough to understand it. The point that he stressed the most was that we should only be baptized after we have had a life changing experience. I'm pretty sure my life changing experience was theCall last year. During this time God set me free from a few things and I had the opportunity to experience Him in a way I couldn't have imagined.

Our church is having a baptism ceremony in a couple weeks. I was really hoping it would be the 25th because that is my birthday. How cool would it be to have your worldly, sinful life be laid down dead and been reborn into God's family on your 17th birthday? Unfortunately, they scheduled it one week early on the 18th. I was kind of disappointed.

Today in English class while Ziebs was lecturing about Macbeth's emotions, etc... I was somewhat foreseeing (not visioning) but rather imagining what it will be like once I am infilled with the Holy Spirit. I kind of had a view at myself and I caught a feeling of what it is like to lose control and just be in a direct line of communication with God. I'm getting pretty stoked now. I really can't wait for the next month to fly by. I'm really getting anxious because I know I don't want to wait and God doesn't want to wait. I've come to some sort of sense that anymore it's not just enough to be forgiven and trying to live for God, but rather be born into His kingdom and living under His blood. Somehow it just seems that I've come to this huge cathartic realization and I'm ready to fly now. I'm ready to drown in His amazing love.

There have been quite a few occasions where I can feel that God has almost given me a taste of speaking in tongues. The same thing usually happens when I get deep into worship. My mouth and lips will go numb and just start to tingle and I'll get this hard urge to just start yelling out words - just words - words I don't even know. I open my mouth but nothing comes out. There is just no flow of the Spirit out of my mouth. This has happened many times but I am almost certain that when the time comes again that it will be completely different.

I'm sure the next time I get around to updating again it will be after my baptism so there will be a continuation of this post. Until then, God bless.

~TiS

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posted by Thoughtful in Selah at 10:06 PM

2 Comments:

God LOVES it when we expect great things from Him!! Keep expecting and keep hoping! He will not disappoint.

Apr 27, 2008, 11:40:00 AM  

Great pos, looking forward to reading the continuation of this post. I'm Glad that God is moving through you like this. Just wait until you get baptized you will go through things so strong and so powerful. More than ever.

Apr 29, 2008, 6:01:00 PM  

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